I’ve always been someone who was sentimental about change. The future is unquestionably exciting, but I still get weepy thinking about how quickly time escapes me and how fast things change. Crawling to walking. Words to sentences. Dependent to “I can do it by myself”. I look forward to the journey ahead, but I can’t deny that the last 4 years at home with Jackson were the most incredible years of my life.
As I thought about this first chapter closing and sending Jackson off to school, I thought about all the lessons and advice I still needed to teach him before he was away from me all day. Then suddenly I realized he was going to be just fine. Because while I was so focused on teaching him, I failed to recognize what he had actually taught me along the way. It turns out that my remarkable little guy ended up shaping me into a better version of myself, a version that makes me proud to be his mama.
So to my dearest little Jackson, I’m fresh out of advice, BUT before I send you off to start chapter 2, there are a few thank you’s that I must say to YOU.
Thank you for leading me on new adventures, to new friendships, and stretching me to go outside of my comfort zone. (Hello – mom groups!)
Thank you for encouraging me to explore new places no matter how far we had to drive. (and thank you for being patient when I would get lost!) Because of you I know every children’s museum, play center, and bounce house facility in the tri-county area.
Thank you for showing me that I have lots of patience while simultaneously feeling like I have none at all.
Thank you for making me recognize that the little things in life are the BEST things in life; having picnics at the park, chasing butterflies in the backyard, baking a fresh batch of cookies. The littlest things made your eyes light UP and I gained a new appreciation for simplicity.
Thank you for making me truly appreciate my parents and all the sacrifices they made (and still make) for me.
Thank you for helping me understand the meaning of “don’t sweat the small stuff”. Spilled cereal, yogurt, and milk (with the exception of breast milk in which case you are entitled to hours of crying), we didn’t let it ruin our fun. You’d say, “I’m really sorry mommy, I’ll be more careful next time.” But I’d take cleaning cereal off of the floor over quiet, boring breakfasts ANY day.
Thank you for teaching me how to admire an inquisitive, imaginative mind that NEVER stops wondering, questioning, or needing to know WHY? You certainly kept me on my toes. “I don’t know” is simply not an acceptable answer. (And I hope you will always be courageous enough to keep this sense of curiosity.)
Thank you for showing me how to make the most of every day that God gives us. Story times, play dates, painting, building, climbing at the park, digging at the beach; the days were long and luckily for us, jam-packed with memories to last a lifetime.
Thank you for making me a more compassionate and caring person. You made me see things in a more positive light. I’m more thoughtful and enthusiastic (and OK, a little more tired too). But overall, in these last 4 years you just made me better.
In my heart I know that you will absolutely love school, but inevitably you will encounter some hills and valleys along the road of this journey. So please take these lessons that you gave me and use them as you navigate through…